It is that time of year of reflection and hope. Unfortunately, all of that seems to get jumbled up with anxiety filled thoughts of wondering what time the wine shop closes because I need to buy one last gift, or trying to estimate what is the best time to leave my house to beat the traffic on Christmas Eve to arrive at my sister’s house on time, because I definitely do not want a repeat of last year.
I often long for, which I am sure many adults do, the simpler times. When the biggest conflicts in our lives would be trying to guess what is that funny shaped gift wrapped in green and white paper laying under the Christmas tree, or is Santa going to bring me that new doll I asked for this year. Holiday parties at school, watching Christmas movies, and helping my mom decorate cookies, pretty much consumed my adolescent self during this time of year. Now, I stress out from everything to what should I wear to the office holiday party to did I remember to take the price tag off of my nephew’s Christmas gift before I wrapped it last night.
If I could really ask Santa for one thing this year, it would be to go back in time. To wake up on Christmas morning when it was still dark outside, tap my sister till she woke up, and run to the Christmas tree to see what Santa brought us. Mom stirring from her bedroom, probably hearing our laughing and squealing from down the hall. Dad slowly behind mom, making his way to the coffee pot. My sister and I both shouting at our parents, “look at what Santa brought us!”.
The day would be spent playing with our toys and showing our relatives the gifts we received from Santa. We would have a delicious dinner, followed by dessert, and spend the evening watching a Christmas movie and playing under the Christmas Tree. Mom and Dad would tuck my sister and I into bed, and we would be so exhausted from the wonderful day we just had. Thoughts of my new toys and playing with my friends tomorrow would consume my thoughts and I would fall into a deep sleep. The kind of restful sleep only a child on Christmas can experience.